Yesterday I would say one of the saddest for me in Singapore. I came late from work and heading toward my normal eating place in Woodland Causeway Point ASAP.
Suddenly, a tourist from Indian asked me the way to get to the Choa Chu Kang MRT. Seeing he is a bit blur and nervous. I decide to detour the normal way in which I get down earlier at after Mandai Road. So I decided to come down at Choa Chu Kang instead and have my dinner at nearest food court.
However then there was another tourist from Hong Kong this time inquiring about how to get there as well. Feeling there was need for me to show my good samaritan, I decided to my innitial place to have dinner at Causeway Point. But this time I will be using the MRT in which it will be slower for me to reach.
Well, things didnt turn up as I think it will be. Those two ungrateful tourist just left and without saying a word of thanks even though I sacrifice my dinner for them so they wont get lost in their way. I dont actually expect a word of thanks from them. I really sincerely want to help them because I was like them not too long ago. Still at least give a smile is all that I wish for. May be they think I could be some kind of a conman or something like that ? Well I choose to forget about that and still be a good samaritan again.
So with heavy heart and hungry stomach, I headed toward Woodland Causeway Point for a nice hearty dinner. But that was not to be, when I do reach the Food Court in Causeway Point, all the stall had closed. Man what a big disappointed ! Is this the kind of payment that I get when I do good things for the society? So depressed over it.
So having no choice, I decide to have my dinner at a steak house. This is the first time that I have a dinner alone in a steak house. It kind of sad do, having your steak alot in night with the waiter and waitress staring at you for being having your dinner alone and also coming in for a meal so late.
This incident give me the sad feeling that I used to when I was in college. I used to have dinner alone daily in my college years. I think it could be one of the main reason why I decided to find a girl friend. It really bring those sad memories. I will be eating alone staring at peoples eating with their partners and also their friends. I would rush to eat my food. Partly because I want to fill up my stomach and also prevent my other friend seeing me eat alone.
Why do I always to have to bear a lot of loneliness in my life? I thought things will be different for me when I start working.
Yup I sometimes wish to have some privacy. But all the time I just wish to be in company with somebody. I wonder if I am the only one with this kind of feeling? Or other people in this world would face the same thing as well.
Something I would lie that I prefer that way so that I could concentrate with my work. But he end of the day I would just think that I am a loner and simply a loser. I just too strange and irritating to most people. They just prefer to hang out with someone more cool and friendly instead of me.
Well, I guess no man is an island. Especially for someone who life in an island alone!
