Studying is Lonely

I was reading some books on reptile in JB today that suddenly that I began to felt the sense of loneliness again. So almost immediately I send several text message to some of my friends. I think I did so to appease my loneliness.



Now come the trouble question of loneliness; Is loneliness is associated with boredom? I mean I do like reading but of course after a while you do get very boring reading especially if you are studying instead of reading!!



If that so, I wonder that why I am so miserable at Singapore! I mean, I will on regular basis read some journals and text books on veterinary medicine. I know you guys will think that I am some sort of freak by doing this. But I am in tough position to do so because I feel that I am truly lack of knowledge in many sense.



Well, loneliness never bother me when I was doing salsa. But I do have admit that I do feel a bit sad when dancing because of not able to have my girl friend with me at that time. But at least, I don't feel lonely.

If studying brings loneliness than I got no words to say. I am stuck between a loneliness and career!

April 18th 2008- Low Spirited Vet

I am having difficulties in my work today. I am by all means mentally tired over the issue of my relationship. I find it is difficult for me to do things around. My mind couldnt help to think about the future of my relationship.

I find myself very hard to make myself efforts to do things. I simply couldnt any spirit to do things on my own. I just need to be ask or told to do things.

I know a man (especially Vets) couldnt let emotion over come our work. But still emotional feelings linger in my soul and heart.

Everytime I tried to put off my thoughts over issue. But still each time that I see young couple together in the zoo; my heart rages with despair and even jealousy.

I guess God just like make me to a sad man in this world. Probably He wanted to test my patient over life matters? Well, what ever it is please stop this test. My patient is runnung low!

I am also fortunate to have good friends like Hanqun around. They are people that are willing to spend time to listen my sorrowness. I feel that it is a great honour to have such friend close about.

Well, I think at the end of the day it all depend on yourself to put way with the misery and carry on life. You must at the same time share your disappointment of the matter with your buddy first and seek his advise if necessary.

It is getting late now and I am still at the office. Wasting my time doing nothing professional but doing this blog. Personally I think that I should focus more on my work but with this problem looming on my head. But this seem hard and improbable to come by!

17th April 2008- The Sad Guy in Singapore

Life hasn't been very nice to me! Recently I had some arguments with my girl friends over some issue. Well, I have to admit it that it is a bump thing to quarrel about but still I still feels that it is necessary for me to brought up the issue with her.

Well, unfortunately things didnt turn up as I hope for. Probably she took things negatively. I wont mention over what issue that we quarrelled about but I personally think that this is not necessary.

However, to be honest, I still think that the issue that I brought up brings sense toward the relationship that we have. I hate to say this but I think that I am not being fairly treated for most of the time. I mean, I have to do all the sacrifice over issue on our relationship but in return I got nothing but bitter disappointment.

Now with this issue looming over my head. I began to hate my life. To many, my life would be a fitting one over them. But to me, it is just so sad. Many would argue that I am the only person that will make my life more furfilling and meaningful. But because of issue of other people in life, I became upset over myself. It seem dumb but I am like that! Strange right?

Well, I have to admit; life over here also been very dull for me. I work with the most exciting job in the world but at the end of the day. I am all alone in my room. Doing nothing but read journal or doing other things. That why I always like to spend go back late from office because that I think it is too unbearable for me to just stay in my room alone for most of the time.

I wonder should I change my lifestyle. I should go for more outing and make more friends? I know that I dont like this kind of things but I think it would make me feel better I am suppose? Hmmm,...

I am A Zoo Vet Now!!

Hi There!!!

It been 7 month since I had worked in the zoo. And I just got the confirmation letter!! Yeah! Yeah! I am a zoo vet now!

It had been both a fun and meaning full journey for me. I not only gain new knowledge and experience but also friends!

My Best Friend and Bro at the Hospital

I felt myself very lucky to have such experience early in my life. It really a privelege for me to start it here in Singapore Zoological Gardens! They have all the facilities for us to help with the diagnosis of the cases and also the sifu (my seniors) to guide me!!

Vasectomy on a wild caught long tail macaque in the careful guidance of Serena

I am so fortunate to have the privelege to learn to attend cases, blow and gun darting, field diagnosis, lab diagnosis and of of course field X-ray.

Taking X-ray on a Lioness with Sonja

I think the most important thing in life is not about learning or making the most of your job. But I think is making friends as you work!

Spending quality time with colleagues

Apart form just learning veterinary stuff and making friends. I learn also do some night life! Recently met a volunteer from Germany who taught me about Salsa and go clubbing! I hope my GF wont kill me on this occasion!!

Me with Carol after salsa dancing!

Well, the first few months been the most difficult for me. As I have to adjust myself to working life, my job and also my separation from my GF. But now, as things had settled down now, I think life over here is not too bad.

I guess in life, we need to be patient and resillient over different situation. And take every challenge and situation as an opportunity to gain knowlege, experience and new friends!!!